I don’t want to be the afterthought that everyone seems to make me out to be. I want to be the here and the now and all the in betweens. I can’t be all of the forgotten words you wish you had said.
I am not the bottled up words you keep locked away behind your tongue. I am the I love you, the I’m sorry, the I wish you were here, the I miss you. I am not the afterthought.
Today I found something I had scribbled into one of my old notebooks last year right after New Years 2013. I was trying to write a good things that happened to me everyday and then I listed numerous goals I wanted to achieve over the following year. The way I talked about myself in those few pages made me remember the deep sadness I felt back then. I wish my old self could see where I am now. I have met so many new friends since then that have brought so much light into my life that I didn’t know then. It might sound stupid but they taught me how to think about myself and to keep fighting to be constantly better. Now I am immersed in everything I love everyday and no matter how much I bitch about it, I wouldn’t rather be doing anything else.
I think the “old me” would be proud.
(Left to Right): Peter Buffett, Jimmie Briggs, Joe Ehrmann, Tony Porter,
Dave Zirin and Moderator Eve Ensler.
Witnesses say they asked Britney why she shaved her head and her response was, “I’m tired of plugging things into it. I’m tired of people touching me.”
i can never not reblog this
T-Pain: “That was the most beautiful thing in the world. Do you know why she was shaving her head? Because it was so important to other people. She is like, “Listen. Don’t touch my hair anymore. Stop touching my hair.” People were like, “We’ve got to make your hair before you go outside. You can’t leave.” She went … “Now I don’t have hair. What you going to do?”
The older I get the more her breakdown seems less ‘unbalanced’ and more ‘completely understandable’